I’ve been thinking about what faith truly means for me, and what life is like when I have it.
For me, faith is when I am cheerful and kind even when I feel like acting the opposite. It’s when I feel peaceful and loved even when I am alone. Faith is when I listen without judgment to my own thoughts, whether they’re happy or not. Faith is when I listen to others’ feelings and opinions with compassion. It’s when I understand that as humans we are all equal; there is no one better than me or worse than me. Faith in 12 steps and hope is when I take people at their word and I trust the Divinity in them, and when I believe that anyone can change for the better.
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Faith is when I remember the Goodness that is in the world and that our very world is made of. Faith is when I see my Higher Power everywhere, in every moment, no matter how challenging or sad or scary the current situation may be.
I am faithful when I am living fully in the present moment and doing the right thing even when it’s difficult and my addictions and compulsions are crying out to be satisfied, and following them might bring me short-term relief but would be at the expense of others’ wellbeing and of my sanity.
For me, faith is when I remember that my God is not the God of my childhood, my God is not my parents or my boyfriend or my coworkers I want to impress. My God is infinitely patient with me, no matter whether I’m cranky or scared or hyper. He is always kind, gentle and strong. He is always looking out for me and giving me the best situations and people possible for my growth. He thinks I am the most special, unique and beautiful man in the world!
I know my Higher Power has big, wondrous plans for me, and He never gives me more than I can handle or anything that isn’t necessary for peace in my present and future. He is always urging me toward joy, and He is holding me every moment of every day. He is always taking care of me in the most powerful, creative, incredible way possible.
Faith is letting go and letting God. This means I accept my life and myself as it is and as I am. It doesn’t mean I have to try to force myself to like everything and everyone, it just means I realize I am powerless over everything except over my own attitude, and over my own level of trust. When I am trusting God, kindness is always an option, and hope is always an option. When I’m full of faith I am also grateful, and I know that my God would never take from me anything that is good for me. He only wants to take away the hurt and my lower ego.
Acceptance and gratitude is peace, and it’s when I turn to God for help that I am letting Him give me love so I may then share it with others, and be fulfilled.
What does faith mean to you and what does it look like in your life? Are you still living with the God of your childhood that may have been made to seem punishing or hateful? In recovery we have the chance to have our Higher Power be however we need It to be to create our new and fulfilling lives. Is your Higher Power full of love and forgiveness?
“As your faith is strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them, to your great delight and benefit.” — Emmanuel Teney
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