For most of my life I’ve been whom I thought people would like. Everything about me, from the color of my hair to the clothes I wore to the way I partied was done in the “socially acceptable” fashion. But last night...
Lately I have been thinking a lot about devotion. Before getting sober, I was devoted to getting what I wanted no matter who was hurt in the process. If I was angry, I did whatever I could to get revenge. If I...
I’ve spent a large part of my life, even before I started drinking, believing that disaster was inevitably around the corner at all times. I can’t even count the mornings I woke up with negative thoughts already beating down the door of...
I’ll be the first to admit sometimes I don’t go to any length to stay sober. I’ve gone a week and a half without going to a meeting, I don’t write out my Tenth Step every single night, and sometimes I procrastinate...
I was reading back over some of my old journals from when I was eighteen and newly sober. I noticed a lot of patterns and repetitive thoughts in each of the entries. The most common theme I noticed was feeling like I...
“When Writing the Story of Your Life, don’t let anyone else hold the pen.” -Rebel Thriver I think of this quote often as I make some big changes in my life. I am quitting a job that I hate to pursue writing...
I never fully comprehended The Beauty of Prayer until about a year into my sobriety. I started waking up every morning before the sun to meditate. That was when I first began to realize how out of control and generally negative my...
For the purposes of easy reading and to protect his identity, I’ll call my ex boyfriend Aaron. The first time he hit me it surprised me more than it physically hurt. He was immediately consumed with guilt and shame afterward; he fell...
